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I am actually very sad today. No matter how I want to look at the beautiful scenery, my heart is still just very sad. I look at the photos from today and I just want to cry. I don't know how to live anymore. I'm not gonna die, but I just don't know how to … Continue reading 2018.03.13
Hard to Love- Bolbbagan4 A note to myself. No matter how much you want them in your life, if it wasn't meant to be, it wasn't meant to be. Do not rely on them anymore. At least not as a friend anymore. Life is lonely. But no matter what, rely on yourself. Even if you … Continue reading 2018.03.12
I hate this. I feel alone. I hate it. But I have to do it. I have to learn to just be alone. To just rely on me. Because only I can deal with me. I don't want to talk anymore. So that's that for now. pk.
2018.03.04 Hi, this is more of for me than it is for you guys. Haha, mainly because I don't ever plan on letting you guys read this. But I just wanted to write this down and keep it before I forget. I just want to talk about the little jars of rocks. Red- I got … Continue reading Letter to My Roommates
Sigh. I don't know what to say. I want to tell you all the reasons why I'm hurting and that I feel abandoned. But the words won't come out of my mouth like they used to. The insecurities in me are coming out. I don't know what I am anymore. Actions really speak louder than … Continue reading 2018.03.04
What do I even do? These people are like the world to me right now. And life is getting so hard. I've tried so many things now. I've tried to keep myself busy so I don't have time to think about them. I've tried to just not care and let them do whatever. It's not … Continue reading 2018.02.14
Just a little food for thought. But one of the saddest things is when you are about to give up and the other person just lets you. If you guys loved each other as much as you said, then you would never let that person give up. Sometimes, when someone wants to give up, just … Continue reading 2018.01.22
Had a nice talk today. I talked about how to let God into my life. I thought about it. Like maybe that's what I need. All this not knowing who to trust and what to do with my life. Maybe I need to trust in God and let him guide my way. It was nice … Continue reading 2018.01.15
I don't know how to feel anymore. I really don't know who to trust or what to even do. After everything that has even happened. It's hard. And I don't know how to do anything anymore. I guess, I still don't trust them. I give people a certain amount of trust when I first meet … Continue reading 2018.01.15